Two weeks is a long time when you’re waiting for life-changing news. I was advised not to tell my soldier-husband, deployed to fight a war called Desert Storm, that something could be terribly wrong with the baby inside my womb. Distractions could risk his life. So, I wrote this frightening story in my journal for him to read later. I remember trying to have faith that the baby would be fine–that the painful amniocentesis would prove her chromosomes in order.
I had friends. I had family, but I felt alone, and I was scared. I’d never known anxiety like this. My imagination ran rampant.
My peace didn’t come until just days before the results. As I drove my car to work, I heard myself saying:
“Lord, this baby is going to be a blessing no matter what.”
The moment the words left my lips peace literally filled my car. Tangible peace. Thick.
I didn’t know what the results would be, but I knew God was with me. That moment of surrender-trust and thanksgiving freed me to receive His unfathomable peace.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” Phil. 4:6-7
A few days later I held a piece of paper with the images of the chromosomes of my healthy baby girl—a baby girl who is now my 22 year old beautiful Lauren, a second grade teacher and amazing artist who painted the little boy above.
But I believe I would’ve experienced the same tangible peace in the car that day even if the test proved different results.
The Apostle Paul commands the Philippians not to worry.
“Do not be anxious about anything.” Anything.
Paul writes about the unfathomable peace of God guarding our hearts and minds. The word peace has been translated from the Greek word Eirene. This is what it means:
-peace, tranquility, repose, calm, harmony, accord, well-being prosperity. It denotes a state of untroubled, undisturbed well being…such a state of peace is brought about by God’s mercy, granting deliverance and freedom from all the distresses that are experienced as a result of sin…this peace can only be the result of reconciliation with God.” (Key-Word, 1615).
The day peace flooded my car, I was reconciled to God’s plan–whatever that plan entailed. I truly believe I only reached that place because I so desperately wanted to trust Him. I was more desperate for the peace than a healthy baby. It wasn’t great faith that prompted thick eirene, it was God. His mercy. His presence.
Are you anxious about anything? Doctor’s results, sick friends or family members, paying the rent, ___________________(you fill in the blank.)
Have you experienced His peace?
I wish I could tell you that I walk around in a cloud of peace all day long, but surrendering to trust–
[tweetability]Trusting that God is good and has good plans even when they don’t look like mine is a daily offering.[/tweetability] (click to tweet)
Can I pray for us?
“Loving God, we desperately need you. So many of us are filled with worry and anxious thoughts. We need your unfathomable eirene. I pray that we might be more desperate for your peace than perfect answers. Help us come to you with thanksgiving for your good answers whatever they might be. We love you. Amen.”
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