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I’m Afraid of Rainbow Blobs!: What’s Your Fear?

He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord. His heart is secure, he will have no fear. (Psalm 112:7,8).

A few years ago it seemed that every day I saw a piece of a rainbow. Not a whole rainbow, or half a rainbow, but an inch of one. I’m sure there is a scientific name for them, but I call them rainbow blobs. They’re just blobs of rainbows created in portions of clouds hanging at just the right angle for the sun’s rays to shine a color spectrum against a blue sky.

I told a friend of mine about them and she told me of a recent prophetic teaching she had heard explaining rainbows. “They are a sign that it is the end of your testing!” she said.  I got really excited about that prophecy. “I’ll claim that!” I squealed trying to justify how it could apply to my life. 

But a few months after this proclamation my sister found out the devastating news that her cancer had returned with a vengeance. And the rest of the story is yesterday’s post.

Well, I’ve been seeing those rainbow blobs again. And I have to tell you, (whispering) “I’m afraid of them!” …I know! It is the silliest thing, but I am afraid. I KNOW better, but I am. I quickly look away when I spot one. A lying voice whispers, “Uh oh…this means more testing. Something bad is going to happen.”

Fear. It’s a new place for me. I know it’s not from the ONE who loves me and you. He does not want us to be afraid. He desires for us to TRUST Him. So, He gives us words like the ones from Psalm 112 to read and memorize and apply to our hearts. Bad news will come. It is inevitable, rainbow blobs or not. It is the order of things for now (Rev. 21:1-4), but God is constantly good. He is present. He is gentle. He is with us.

When I found Psalm 112 the other morning those words jumped out at me. “She will have no fear of bad new…her heart is steadfast…her heart is secure.”

Oh to have that secure and steadfast heart- the same one I had in younger days when I did not know grief or disease. I know He’s growing me deeper. He’s growing all of us deeper as we have to choose to trust Him even in the disappointments and pain. Can I pray for us?

“Oh Lord, we worship you. Steady our hearts with your love. Secure our hearts with greater trust in you. Take away the fear of bad news, and give us your peace. And thank you for your rainbow blobs. Amen.”

What are you afraid of?

Much love,

Therefore, confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective (James 5:16).

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