The other day I realized that I’m a writer. Silly, huh?
A salary does not reward me the title…yet. But the fact that I spend the majority of my days typing at my computer does. My laptop is a good friend. I actually miss it when I haven’t had the chance to sit and pour out my soul through its keys. Even the white screen and the blinking cursor invite my spirit to enter.
My computer has become…
Comfort. Though pouring my heart out for all to see is not safe, and at times it is rather uncomfortable.
I never really dreamed of doing this as a career because I never thought I was good enough to allow the dream..
Have you done this with anything in your life?
[tweetability]Have you squelched a dream because you didn’t feel qualified?[/tweetability]
There are human handicaps and frailties that delegate the possible and improbable. For instance, I will never be an Olympian. But that’s okay because my heart never yearned for such feats. After being chosen last on every elementary school-yard team, I decided to invest my heart in abilities better fitting.
As a kid, I dreamed big dreams. I was going to be a rocket scientist for a brief year. And then as science lost it’s sparkle or perhaps I lost my sparkle for science and numbers, my dreams of rockets faded and my love affair with words slowly flamed. A new dream, the one God chose for me was planted deep inside.
But after years of living, the dream drifted away. Life demanded logic.
Planted deep down in me has lain a tiny seed that breathed in brief moments– when dreams were allowed to run free.
That seed, dormant for decades–as good as dead, now blooms within me and flowers all over this friend of mine–this mechanical gatekeeper. It stores my words and provides the venue to minister to others, teach what I love, and share the gospel message.
The best part is that I no longer desire dreams of fame and fortune (which I was never comfortable with anyway.) I know this new-found contentment seeps through my soul because I’ve found the true dream that lived inside me all along.
Maybe that’s why my computer feels like home.
I found me.
What seed lies dormant in you? May I encourage you to pray for sunlight and water to bring it to life. We’re not getting any younger, you know.[tweetability]There will always be someone more talented, but there will never be another you. And you have something to give the world.[/tweetability]
Seize the day.