The phone rang and I answered. Something in me was a little worried. You know when you feel something painful coming?
We talked about the weather and the kids, skirting around the reason why she called. Maybe she was just softening me up preparing me for the blow. Or maybe she dreaded it herself.
Then she asked how I was doing, and I told her I was struggling, and that was the open door for her advice. Like Jonah at Niniveh, or Elijah talking to Ahab, she proceeded to tell me I was idolatrous.
Now, I know I’m not perfect– that’s why I need Jesus everyday. I know that this whole idol thing was something I truly worried about and wanted to prevent. But when you are worried about something, and you fear it may happen, God wants to free you from its talons.
And so He may allow you to fall, or He may send a friend to tell you you’ve fallen to get your attention, so that He can free you before you really do bite the dust. [sorry, that was a really long sentence!]
I got off the phone and fell to my knees. A deluge of tears poured rivers down my cheeks. My carpet was anointed that day. I got up and slowly began to try to do my day, but the condemnation would not leave.
And it would not leave.
And it would not leave.
Like a dark , thick gray cloud, condemnation would not dissipate. Something was not right with this feeling.
As I wrestled with God asking Him why I still felt condemned after repenting and confessing my sin, He showed me where my real idolatry lay. It wasn’t in things or accolades or success, it was in people–people I placed on pedestals.
People I trusted more than the Holy Spirit.
A memory flashed in my mind when I decided to trust a person’s judgment over God’s voice inside me. That decision led to a long, dark, lonely year without Jesus.
As soon as the conviction of that memory came, so did freedom. And the heavy oppression of condemnation evaporated.
It. Was. Gone.
I love Romans 8:1.
“There is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life has set me free from the law of sin and death.”
Check this out.
The word “sin” was chosen to translate the Greek word Hamartia and the definition says, “The fundamental idea of this word is that of failing to meet an objective, maintain a standard, fulfill an obligation.” (Key Word)
Of course that objective was holiness and righteousness, but there’s just something about that word “failure”. We hate that word don’t we? It’s a word that brings condemnation. But.
We have been set free from the law of failure.
The word “death” implies separation from God.
We are no longer separated and will never be separated from the one who gives life.
If a good intentioned friend’s words condemn you or even a verse from the Bible feels condemning, stand on Romans 8:1 and wrestle with God. Ask Him to show you why you feel that way and free you with His truth.
When we are free, we can spread the Spirit of life.
Be a life giver today.
Leave a comment: Do you know anyone who doubts his or her salvation because they feel they keep on failing? Are you one of those people? Will this post help?
Jesus loves you,
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