She is constantly checking to see how she is feeling about the situation. Constantly complaining about how tired, busy, underpaid, and under appreciated she is. Often dreading going to work (even though its for an hour) and worrying about her other job which is not paying at the moment but has the potential to change lives. She never vocalizes these complaints out loud, because she knows better. But I know she has this tendency to always wonder what the benefits are for her.
Unfortunately, I know this because she is me. Not all of me, but the very human, sinful, me. She is shrinking, but she is still there.
The other side of me is learning how to silence her with thanksgiving. “Thank you Lord for this job today. Thank you for this opportunity to be a blessing….make me a blessing please.”
My sinful self watches to find what she is getting out of each relationship or job. But the spirit in me, the new way of thinking in Christ realizes that it is not about me. Sure, I will get a blessing out of it, but God puts me in situations to be the blessing. Christ didn’t walk around looking for the blessing. He touched everyone He met with love and healing and His presence blessed them.
When I ask to be the blessing rather than be blessed, my attitude changes and that complaining voice inside my head has no volume. I can’t get away from her, but I can turn her off. (Smile).
Challenge: Pray to be a blessing today.
Be Joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus (1 Thess. 5:16).