Some of my friends see me as a woman of great faith. Yet someone whom I respect and love asked in a difficult time of waiting and disappointment, “Where’s your faith?” I replied tearfully, “I don’t have any!”
It has been almost twenty years since that dreadful question. The words cut like a knife. They cut through joint and marrow revealing the ugly cancer of fear. But since that first big lesson on faith, I’ve learned I have two options when faced with disappointment.
Trust or Fear.
Fear paralyzes me. Fear invites the self-pity party. Idolatry. Fear causes me to question myself and God.
Trust puts my eyes on the One who sees the big picture.
Hindsight is 20/20 vision. Tangible evidence of God’s faithfulness and wisdom. And very helpful when choosing to trust Him. I am so thankful His answer to me was “no” twenty years ago because there would not be a third child in our family if I had gotten what I thought was the best answer. That’s kind of a big deal.
So today, after receiving a disappointing decision from a publisher, I am choosing faith.
Faith that God has a better plan, and he will guide me. Faith in His perfect timing.
What about you? What are you choosing today?
FYI: Trust feels much better than fear.
Much grace and peace,
andy
Have I not commmanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord God will be with you wherever you go (Joshua 1:9)
