Ugly Diligence

The battle is great.

Can you feel it?

I have always said, “People who face a series of tragedies in their life or who struggle with depression or self worth must have an important God-purpose, one the enemy is scared of and is frantically trying to deter.” I believe that with all my heart.

And with this in mind, I’m always encouraging my friends to worship when they’re struggling.

It’s one thing to teach it, but it’s another to do it!

God must love me, and the enemy must be scared of me because I’ve been in need of practicing what I preach.

Thank you to all who have been praying for me and with me. Today is a new day, and the smoke from the battle seems to be thinning. I think I can see a glimmer of victory ahead.

And I’m reminded: “Consider it pure joy my sisters and brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything” (James 1:2-4).

Maybe someday I’ll be joyous in the middle of the trial rather than at the end. But these days I just hold my breath, prepare for impact, and try to ride out the battle until it passes. It isn’t pretty, but it does get me through. I’m calling it ugly diligience. I’m working on the pretty, graceful diligence. (Smile). But that’s silly; only soldiers are on the  battlefield. Not ballerinas.

As long as we live on this dust called earth, we will fight spiritual battles.

Be diligent. Keep on keepin’ on with me. We aren’t alone in our thoughts of worthlessness and trials. But we are an army of God to be reckoned with. Put on your armor with me today. Remember, the battle means the enemy is scared of you. You have Jesus. Let’s fight!


Much grace and peace,

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