I am an emotional eater.
The other day, I was upset so I drove my minivan through the McDonald’s drive-thru for some comfort food. I never get a Quarter Pounder hamburger, much less the whole meal (French fries and soda included.) But yesterday my heart hurt, so eat I did.
I’m also an emotional cook. Yesterday’s grief resulted in fettuccine Alfredo. We rarely eat pasta at our house, but sometimes you just need noodles and cheese.
When I’m upset, I automatically try to fill the hole in my heart with food.
Before the McDonalds run, I’d driven to Hospice to visit a friend dying of cancer. After ten days without food, my dying friend’s face was gaunt– like a face on a UNICEF publication. Though her body was there, her chest rising and falling methodically with each breath, she lay gone already. She didn’t seem to be in pain anymore. Yet I sat next to suffering. I touched her hand. Told her I loved her. Prayed.
Suffering comes in different packages, but it’s never tied up with a pretty bow. It’s ribbons are barbed wire. They poke and tear, threatening our faith at times, barring our freedom to the other side. Yet ihope. We hold hope.
The Apostle Paul penned hope in ink:
“I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.” (Romans 8:18)
What is glory? What does he mean when he writes about the glory that will be revealed in us?
The Greek word for our English “glory” is doxa. This is what editor Zodhiates writes in the Key-Word explaining doxa:
“…It is the state in which one is accorded the fullest enjoyment of the admiration and honor of God–the object of His highest regard and praise…the inheritance of His Kingdom, resurrection, and the enjoyment of fullness, satisfaction, joy, righteousness, and ceaseless delight.”
One day the emptiness caused by suffering will be filled. We will experience the enjoyment of fullness.
Hang on my friends. The glory, the doxa, is coming. We won’t need comfort food to fill us. (Which leaves us empty, unhealthy and 5 pounds heavier.)
His pleasure will.
Digging Deep to Live Fully,
*At 4:40 January 15, 2014 my friend went home. Though we were broken-hearted, we know she is experiencing the glory…the admiration and honor of God, enjoyment of fullness, the inheritance of the kingdom…. She suffers no more. She is free.